Well, back from Christmas with Hans' family. Had a nice time, ate more than I should have, and will likely pay the price for it.
I guess the upside was my goal was to lose 2 pound per week, and since this is day 12, that's just under 2 weeks, so I should be closing in 4 pounds of loss "by the books", and I'm at 3.4.
I had 11 pounds lost, but the overindulgence yesterday wiped out the overage I had. So, even though I'm disappointed in losing my lead, I'm still not behind in the original goal.
So, here's today's breakdown. It's earlier in the day than I usually do this, but I don't plan on doing any more damage than I've already done.
Since it's Saturday, we'll start with the measurements:
Neck: 16.25 (down 0.5 inch)
Right Arm: 22 (down 1 inch)
Left Arm: 23 (up 1 inch...can't help wondering if I mixed up the measurements last week)
Bust: 57.5 (down 1.5 inches, but I am wearing a different bra, so I'm dismissing this one)
Chest: 51 (up 1 inch)
Tummy: 62.5 (no change)
Waist: 53.5 (down 0.5 inch)
Belly/Hips: 69.5 (down 1 inch)
Right Thigh: 35 (down 0.5 inch)
Left Thigh: 35.5 (no change)
So, no drastic changes, but more "down" than "no change" or "up"
Here's the daily breakdowns:
Weight: 375 (down 3.4 pounds from starting weight on December 15th)
Mental Level: 7. Just "eh" today. Did some good stuff like write my thank you notes for Christmas presents, but also doubt I'll go out and do much exercise. I've already pretty much decided I'm not going to the library to return the books that are due today. They'll end up going back on Monday.
Exercise Today: None yet, but it is still only early afternoon. I doubt I'll go out of the house and hike, but I may do some aerobics since Hans isn't home.
Food Intake Today: Ok so far. Did a Christmas tradition and had some candy in bed before getting up. Chocolate tastes so amazingly good first thing in the morning! Honestly, it's not something I normally ever do, it's really only a Christmas thing, so it's not that bad. I logged it in my "Lose It!" app, and I'm not going to have any more candy today, so I'm not going to beat myself up for it.
Inspirational Quote of the Day:
"Our greatest glory consists not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall."
-Oliver Goldsmith
Christmas Eve I made no entry because we went directly from work to Hans' parents house. A general rundown of the day though: Good eating, good exercising (8 flights of stairs, 30 minutes walking), good mental state throughout the day, but by evening, something snapped and I dropped to about a 1 on my scale of 0-10 (0 being standing on a ledge with a knife against my wrist, and 10 being a normal functioning person). It took all I could to just sit with a book, read or pretend to read and not hurt myself. If you have had depression, I'm sorry, I'm truly sorry, because you understand what I mean. If you've never had depression, I'm so happy for you, because no matter how many pages I could write about it, you'll never truly know what the hell it is to be in that state.
Christmas day I made no entry because we were still at Hans' parents house, and there is no computer there. I did really quite good on the eating until dinner, and if I hadn't had that second plate really would have been proud of myself. The second plate made me emotionally feel like I'd failed, and physically feel like I was about to die. I couldn't believe the stomach pain. Very, very bad decision. Emotionally I was good, maybe a 5 or 6, and I didn't do any exercising.
So, that brings us to today, the day after Christmas. I'm still on track in terms of 2 pounds a week lost, but I did seem to lose my lead. Perhaps I'll regain it, but for now, I'll take it as a victory that I'm not giving up.
